Two days ago I celebrated my 50K Facebook milestone by posting….nothing!
My 50K Facebook fan milestone has come and gone. I didn’t celebrate and I feel like I owe you an explanation.
There’s a lot of pressure that comes with having a Facebook page with active followers. If you LIKE Cloth Diaper Geek on Facebook I want you to know that I do not take my ability to share things with you lightly. I keep in mind that I do not know the struggles you may be going through at the exact time a post from my page appears in your newsfeed.
- Are you at work on a lunch break just scrolling through Facebook?
- Are you at home on the couch with a nursing babe at your breast just passing the time?
- Are you in the bathroom with the door closed on the verge of tears because you’re so overhwelmed or feeling alone?
Good mood, bad mood, bitch-mode, depressed, lonely, ready to shop til you drop? I have no clue. This worries me and is one of the reasons I steer clear of controversial topics and sensitive issues. Your Facebook newsfeed likely has enough drama without me contributing to it.
I think about what I post as an interruption of your day and as such, shouldn’t it be a worthy one?
Some days, depending on my mood, I suppose I find more content worthy of sharing with you and other days I feel like giving you your space, maybe because it’s space I need and I know how you feel?
Is it a good idea to give your followers break when popularity and growth is based on engagement? I have no idea, probably not. I’m just a mother, struggling to still be my own person, trying to work from home and stay authentic. I often feel like an unwilling participant in a popularity contest and my livelihood depends on me making the cut. The me that exists in real life likes solitude, peacefulness and quite frankly isn’t all that social.
What about a 50K Celebration?
I already organize so many events for both myself and my clients that I sometimes feel like all I do is ASK for prizes, donations, sponsorships and STUFF-over and over again!
Am I worthy of it all?
Will sponsors be interested AGAIN so soon?
What if no one responds?
What if they didn’t see the value from working with me last time?
Will people see me as just a giveaway blogger?
My real world insecurities have successfully infiltrated my online relationships and social media presence. You might have noticed I rarely post about personal topics or real life issues, not because I don’t have those topics in draft but because I often feel too insecure to share them with you. I need to get back to it, share more of myself, let myself be vulnerable. Deep down I know I’m worthy, we all are, and that more personal posts have the potential to help others, but putting myself out there for both acceptance or rejection, is easier said than done – for me at least.
Having a job that requires you to be ON Facebook all the time can take it’s toll. In this case my 50K milestone came on a day when I simply just wasn’t feeling it. A huge 50K event would have been fun I am sure, but a peaced out couple of days of radio silence also felt like the right thing to do. I still might celebrate soon with an event or giveaway (self sponsored) you’ll just have to wait and see!
I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for reading my 50K reflection and for being a part of my Facebook community. Thank you for interacting, caring, sharing and sometimes shopping through the links I share. You truly make a difference in my life and I know your patronage helps me support my family and the families of the businesses I share.
Thanks for being here. Smooches!