I want to cry or scream, on a daily basis. How often do you?

I’m taking a detour from all the things I should be doing at the moment in order to write this blog post that’s been on my mind.  I think I’m writing it in the hopes that fellow mothers can relate, so that I know I’m not really crazy (well I really am a little), but because I think it’s normal, I think I am normal, and I hope you all do too.

I want to cry or scream, on a daily basis, how often do you?  From 6am until about 9pm I deal with whining, crying, wrestling, non-stop eating, drinking, rambunctious, tattle-telling, demanding and extremely messy kids.  From 9-12 my twin 5yr olds are in preschool and let me tell you, those three hours go by in about five minutes.

We run a tight ship around here but NO is never answer they want to hear or accept, especially from me when their dad’s not home.  No…means yes.  Maybe…means yes. Yes…means NOW!  Most days I just don’t know what to do or say because they just WILL NOT listen.  It’s then that I want to cry.  Sometimes I tell them they’re going to make me cry or that I feel like I’m going crazy.  Sometimes that’s all that works.

I think it’s normal to not really be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel on most days.  Groundhog Day anyone?  I don’t get to whine about these things to anyone in real life.  If I do, people feel sorry for me, they offer out of obligation, to take the kids sometime so I can have a break.  I always decline.

I’m sure in public you’ve heard people tell you what an awesome mother you are.  “How do you do it all?” they say.  We smile, we thank them, we tell them we just do what we know and what we’ve got to do.

Sometimes I think I maybe really have gone a little crazy, and that it may be irreversible.  I wonder if I’ll make it through and if I really can keep up this pace?  I try to keep in mind that one day they’ll be out of the house and I’ll be bored, wishing they’d come for a visit, secretly wishing I could go back to this crazy time in my life.

So, today I’m coping by writing.  How do you keep on keeping on when you feel like you may be losing it?